10/15/24 - This year of life, a retrospective
it's... my.. BIRTHDAY!!! squeals!!!! this year was quite a rollercoaster in many ways, i had extreme highs and lows, it went really fast, and there were loops and backwards-upside-downs. when i say this year, i'm talking as if the year starts on october 15, since i don't feel like giving out my exact age. why? i don't know, i'm just kind of silly. i started it on a low, having a falling-out with my friends, got even lower when i had a big, bad breakup, then recovered and had fun. i also have had many important things happen to me this year, like starting HRT (hormone replacement therapy), changing medications, changing my outlook on life, having a new member be added to the family (binx the cat!), beginning the process of getting my legal name changed to my preferred one, and many others! i've also had tons of fun doing many things, such as daytrips with my family, going to canada, staying in the adirondacks, and more things!!!!!!! i've cried, smiled, laughed, screamed, and felt so many things. i've hyperfixated on many things, such as omori, moral orel, ride the cyclone, needy streamer overload, vocaloid, masa works design, and more my dumbass is probably forgetging :P my hyperfixations have been starting to last longer, so i'm super happy about that!!! however ik its gonna hurt when theyre gone T_T anywyas, i also made the decision to stop going by ratboyray online and start going by kitnomaly, i was so tired of ratboyray, it was annoying to me and it felt stale, i also felt like there was a higher chance of school ppl from finding out my accounts -_- i was more worried about it last year than i am this year, because last year i was getting bullied alot ;^; luckily this year people seem to be leaving me alone :-) anyways, where do i even begin?!?!?!? i can't believe i'm so OLD. when i was way younger i thought my age would be a distant future that would seem to never come, and it seemed so old, now i feel SOOOOO FUCKING YOUNG.. anyways, there's been a giant contrast in how school has felt within the time period 10/15/23-10/15/24. last school year, the most stressful thing about school was the bullies, and making sure i did the algebra homework i occasionally got. but now that i'm a grade higher, oh god it is WORSE! i have to do 2 pages of notes for apwh like evry class, memorize like 50 geometry proof reasons as well as do a ton of homework for it, cram so much in my head for physics as well as do giant lab write ups, write essays often for ela and we have to read a ton independently AND read books that we read as a class, it's totally overwhelming, but i know i can definitely manage. i have a lot of hope i can do really well. i have a lot of hope in general. i've always been a hopeful person, and after my breakup i feel like i've become even more hopeful due to SO. MUCH. introspective shit, i would reflect into my deepest thoughts and philosophies and i decided i KNEW there's always hope of things getting better, and you should NEVER let yourself lose hope, it's one of the most important things. i've always been a hopeful person though, always encouraging people to stay hopeful, but now i'm even more hopeful. i KNOW deep down things WILL get better, absolutely no matter what. but depending on your luck, actions, etc., things might get better sooner or later than you think. even if it feels like it's forever, it won't be forever. things will change, for better or for worse. and you must be hopeful and accept it. even the most difficult change ever that makes you feel like your life is absolutely RUINED might turn good in the end. things WILL get better, even if you think they won't. please,, just keep on going, the only way things can get better absolutely ANY TIME SOON is if you continue going, no matter your pace or the amount of fervor in your step. whew, sorry, i got kind of passionate, but anyways that's pretty much my current outlook on life, hashtag stay hopeful and compassionate and open minded :-))))) oh yeah, i've also become WAY more open minded. i'm willing to listen to what literally ANYONE wants to say, no matter how much i disagree with it or how insane it sounds to me. i've changed a lot in beliefs and as a person when i decided to open my mind wider, i am far more accepting and i am very very proud of that. i am not just tolerant, i am loving. i love you no matter who you are or what's wrong with you. you're still a human and whatever you do, you have good intentions and believe in what you're doing. as long as you are not trying to hurt anyone i love you. o shit i got off topic again lol- anyways i'm not sure what else to say, i'm kinda feeling stupid, i drained myself of anything substantial to say after spewing that pseudowisdom lel, anyways goodbye, that's it for now!
it's... my.. BIRTHDAY!!! squeals!!!! this year was quite a rollercoaster in many ways, i had extreme highs and lows, it went really fast, and there were loops and backwards-upside-downs. when i say this year, i'm talking as if the year starts on october 15, since i don't feel like giving out my exact age. why? i don't know, i'm just kind of silly. i started it on a low, having a falling-out with my friends, got even lower when i had a big, bad breakup, then recovered and had fun. i also have had many important things happen to me this year, like starting HRT (hormone replacement therapy), changing medications, changing my outlook on life, having a new member be added to the family (binx the cat!), beginning the process of getting my legal name changed to my preferred one, and many others! i've also had tons of fun doing many things, such as daytrips with my family, going to canada, staying in the adirondacks, and more things!!!!!!! i've cried, smiled, laughed, screamed, and felt so many things. i've hyperfixated on many things, such as omori, moral orel, ride the cyclone, needy streamer overload, vocaloid, masa works design, and more my dumbass is probably forgetging :P my hyperfixations have been starting to last longer, so i'm super happy about that!!! however ik its gonna hurt when theyre gone T_T anywyas, i also made the decision to stop going by ratboyray online and start going by kitnomaly, i was so tired of ratboyray, it was annoying to me and it felt stale, i also felt like there was a higher chance of school ppl from finding out my accounts -_- i was more worried about it last year than i am this year, because last year i was getting bullied alot ;^; luckily this year people seem to be leaving me alone :-) anyways, where do i even begin?!?!?!? i can't believe i'm so OLD. when i was way younger i thought my age would be a distant future that would seem to never come, and it seemed so old, now i feel SOOOOO FUCKING YOUNG.. anyways, there's been a giant contrast in how school has felt within the time period 10/15/23-10/15/24. last school year, the most stressful thing about school was the bullies, and making sure i did the algebra homework i occasionally got. but now that i'm a grade higher, oh god it is WORSE! i have to do 2 pages of notes for apwh like evry class, memorize like 50 geometry proof reasons as well as do a ton of homework for it, cram so much in my head for physics as well as do giant lab write ups, write essays often for ela and we have to read a ton independently AND read books that we read as a class, it's totally overwhelming, but i know i can definitely manage. i have a lot of hope i can do really well. i have a lot of hope in general. i've always been a hopeful person, and after my breakup i feel like i've become even more hopeful due to SO. MUCH. introspective shit, i would reflect into my deepest thoughts and philosophies and i decided i KNEW there's always hope of things getting better, and you should NEVER let yourself lose hope, it's one of the most important things. i've always been a hopeful person though, always encouraging people to stay hopeful, but now i'm even more hopeful. i KNOW deep down things WILL get better, absolutely no matter what. but depending on your luck, actions, etc., things might get better sooner or later than you think. even if it feels like it's forever, it won't be forever. things will change, for better or for worse. and you must be hopeful and accept it. even the most difficult change ever that makes you feel like your life is absolutely RUINED might turn good in the end. things WILL get better, even if you think they won't. please,, just keep on going, the only way things can get better absolutely ANY TIME SOON is if you continue going, no matter your pace or the amount of fervor in your step. whew, sorry, i got kind of passionate, but anyways that's pretty much my current outlook on life, hashtag stay hopeful and compassionate and open minded :-))))) oh yeah, i've also become WAY more open minded. i'm willing to listen to what literally ANYONE wants to say, no matter how much i disagree with it or how insane it sounds to me. i've changed a lot in beliefs and as a person when i decided to open my mind wider, i am far more accepting and i am very very proud of that. i am not just tolerant, i am loving. i love you no matter who you are or what's wrong with you. you're still a human and whatever you do, you have good intentions and believe in what you're doing. as long as you are not trying to hurt anyone i love you. o shit i got off topic again lol- anyways i'm not sure what else to say, i'm kinda feeling stupid, i drained myself of anything substantial to say after spewing that pseudowisdom lel, anyways goodbye, that's it for now!
9/22/24 - Happy Fall
it's fall! but that's old news I guess, it turned fall yesterday -u- anyways, fall is my favorite season! i just love fall, fall vibes, plus halloween is in fall, my favorite holiday! and also my bday is in fall! october 15... oh you so want to tell me happy birthday on that day... oooh you definitely do... no, i'm not hypnotizing you, what are you talking about? anyways, not much has happened lately, i've been doing tons of stuff for school.. ugh!! school... -_- but i've managed, so far. last year, gym class fucking sucked. but dude, the gym class i'm in this year is not terrible! instead of running a mile every class we get to walk it yayyyy!! i have been severely brainrotting over vocaloid lately and it's alllll i wanna talk about... im also kind of obsessing over masa works design. i kind of wish he kept his old art style and still made vocarock sometimes. joker, abnormal love enthusiast, and what we've heard of interafce were all so good!!! i tried looking for interface yesterday by searching for its sm on niconico in hopes of it being in a vocarank (which in retrospect was kinda fuckin dumb bc its been common knowledge there was one foficial vocarank thing where the 10-second clip of it was found idk), looking for old vocarock compilations, etc, but to absolutely no avail.. i also made a cover of the spider and the kitsune like lion by masa works design! i think its kinda cool, i guess i'm proud of it :-) i want to make original music so baddddd but i cant figure out for shit how to use any of those fancy programs plus i have like no musical talent in terms of making original music ToT i can't think of one original melody ugh! anyways, i thimk it's about time i shut up and wrap up this blog post! take care!
it's fall! but that's old news I guess, it turned fall yesterday -u- anyways, fall is my favorite season! i just love fall, fall vibes, plus halloween is in fall, my favorite holiday! and also my bday is in fall! october 15... oh you so want to tell me happy birthday on that day... oooh you definitely do... no, i'm not hypnotizing you, what are you talking about? anyways, not much has happened lately, i've been doing tons of stuff for school.. ugh!! school... -_- but i've managed, so far. last year, gym class fucking sucked. but dude, the gym class i'm in this year is not terrible! instead of running a mile every class we get to walk it yayyyy!! i have been severely brainrotting over vocaloid lately and it's alllll i wanna talk about... im also kind of obsessing over masa works design. i kind of wish he kept his old art style and still made vocarock sometimes. joker, abnormal love enthusiast, and what we've heard of interafce were all so good!!! i tried looking for interface yesterday by searching for its sm on niconico in hopes of it being in a vocarank (which in retrospect was kinda fuckin dumb bc its been common knowledge there was one foficial vocarank thing where the 10-second clip of it was found idk), looking for old vocarock compilations, etc, but to absolutely no avail.. i also made a cover of the spider and the kitsune like lion by masa works design! i think its kinda cool, i guess i'm proud of it :-) i want to make original music so baddddd but i cant figure out for shit how to use any of those fancy programs plus i have like no musical talent in terms of making original music ToT i can't think of one original melody ugh! anyways, i thimk it's about time i shut up and wrap up this blog post! take care!
9/7/24 - First Entry
wow, this is my first blog entry! hello world (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ i don't have that much to say but i want to make my first entry count, so i'll just dump out about everything that's been going on with me. so, i'm back to school! i had to do apwh homework on the first day.. -_- wasn't that bad though, i just had to take notes. i'm also joining the drama club! we're doing spongebob the musical teehee idk who to audition for... i'll just choose someone random on a whim when i have to. i haven't been able to draw as much due to school :-( but i still do when i can! anyways, my new cat binx has been warming up to us recently, he's been letting us pet him and even pick him up! he's so cute :-3!!! i have also been working like every day on this site. i really want it to be as awesome as it can! also i've been hyperfixated really hard on the onibi series.... i cannot get it out of my head... and i realize vocaloid may not be a hyperfixation but a special interest at this point... wow! also i've began celebrating halloween! if christmas fans can celebrate christmas in november, i can celebrate halloween in september. 🎃 also, my birthday's coming up in like... over a month... but i am excited nonetheless..! also as i am typing this sentence i am lsitening to will o the wisp by masa works design, heeeeheeee this feels more like a microblog entry than a blog entry, but trust me dudeeee im just tryna scrounge up any material i can to pad out my first entry i wanted to make it special, okaaaaaaaay? even though i have no idea if anyone will actually read this i wanted to put in some effort anyway :-p anyways, goodbye I love you@!!!!!!!! romantically (¬‿¬ ) /j
wow, this is my first blog entry! hello world (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ i don't have that much to say but i want to make my first entry count, so i'll just dump out about everything that's been going on with me. so, i'm back to school! i had to do apwh homework on the first day.. -_- wasn't that bad though, i just had to take notes. i'm also joining the drama club! we're doing spongebob the musical teehee idk who to audition for... i'll just choose someone random on a whim when i have to. i haven't been able to draw as much due to school :-( but i still do when i can! anyways, my new cat binx has been warming up to us recently, he's been letting us pet him and even pick him up! he's so cute :-3!!! i have also been working like every day on this site. i really want it to be as awesome as it can! also i've been hyperfixated really hard on the onibi series.... i cannot get it out of my head... and i realize vocaloid may not be a hyperfixation but a special interest at this point... wow! also i've began celebrating halloween! if christmas fans can celebrate christmas in november, i can celebrate halloween in september. 🎃 also, my birthday's coming up in like... over a month... but i am excited nonetheless..! also as i am typing this sentence i am lsitening to will o the wisp by masa works design, heeeeheeee this feels more like a microblog entry than a blog entry, but trust me dudeeee im just tryna scrounge up any material i can to pad out my first entry i wanted to make it special, okaaaaaaaay? even though i have no idea if anyone will actually read this i wanted to put in some effort anyway :-p anyways, goodbye I love you@!!!!!!!! romantically (¬‿¬ ) /j